2 posts tagged “chocolate”

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Happy Valentines Day to all my Blog Buddies.

Have a great day full of love, flowers and chocolate!!!

I am feeling like the worst co worker/friend right now. One of my co workers confronted me about how I (not just me be me and our other co worker) was making her feel. She really blindsided me with her feelings. I noticed that she was out of sorts this morning and she even made a remark. Maybe I should describe what happened and what work is like. I work with 2 other ladies. Myself and D work together with the kids and A does production work and office admin. stuff. We work really well together, I thought. We have fun with each other, joke and poke fun all very fun and light. D had bought a large amount of Ghirardelli chocolate chips and split them with A. When A got in this morning D asked her how the kids like the chips. A said 'They didn't like them' D laughed and looked at me and I laughed cause we thought she was joking you know being sarcastic but apparently not. Her kids really didn't like them. A than says to us 'What?....I am tired being the inside joke'. HUH? D missed what she said I heard her but didn't take her seriously after all who doesn't really like chocolate chips?  After reccess she approaches me and said that she was kind of tired of feeling like she was on the outside of D and I looking in and being felt like she was being left out. She was also tired of the negativity and complaining D and I do and being pissed anytime there are changes. Like I said I was completely blindsided so much so I started to cry (I hate that about me. Once the flood gates open I have a hard time getting it together again.) Anyway, I told her that I had no idea she felt that way. I was sorry if I contributed to her feeling like she was on the outside and that she was hurt. I told her that I think the world of her and would never intentionally set out to hurt her.
I apologized as best I could being as I was quite emontional. She told me to take a deep breath that she was going to be fine she just had to get that off her chest and she doesn't hold grudges or anything. Okay meanwhile I feel like the worst friend....yes friend, I have always considered her and friend and will continue to. The thing is. D and I have NEVER had any inside joke regarding A. We both have great respect for her. A feels left out because D and I have the same job and D and I are always together while she is in the office most of the time. Whenever D and I are done with whatever we gather in the office the shot the breeze with A. I am not exactly sure why she feels the way she feels and I am not convinced that D and I have done anything to make her feel that way. I hate that she feels the way she does and I will make every effort to make sure what I say and do does't contribute to it. But now I am afraid to joke with her for fear she is going to take it the wrong way. She does have a great sense of humor and is a lot of fun but it looks like for her there is a limit. Geez it's not like we cut each other down with sarcasim or anything. We've never done that. Most things we say are tongue in cheek kind of stuff. As for the negativity and complaining well hmmmmm ya I complain at times. Mostly my 'complaining' is an opinion I have  on some silly decision the Principal makes that doesn't make sense to me. I am not by nature a negative person so I am not sure what that was about. A as far as I know hasen't said anything to D. I think she got what was on her mind out to me and doesn't feel like she needs to say anything to D. I wont be telling D of the conversation cause Lord knows I don't want A to feel like we are now talking behind her back. grrrr now I feel like I am walking on eggshells.
I am rambling. I am sure most of this doesn't make sense oh well just needed to vent a bit.